This year has been a tough one, but you guys, we’ve made it so far! Personally, this has been a year of significant growth and development set in dramatic contrast with the fear and tedium of COVID-19. I feel as if I’ve been straddling a very divide between immense gratitude and disheartenment*. I acknowledge that I’ve experienced this year from an extremely privileged vantage point, but it’s okay to acknowledge that this is hard for everyone on different levels. Even if you weren’t on the front lines, you’ve faced your fair share of loss and fear this year. I’m recognizing that in myself and being deliberate about the things I tell myself heading into this winter. Specifically, it’s okay to lean into comforts. Bring on all of the cozy blankets, pancakes, and candles.
I’m dedicating December to rest and reflection, and approaching work in the studio without expectations. While I work with both oils and gouache year round, the focus shifts away from oils as my process comes inside for the winter. It’s a relief to be able to approach this new cut paper work from a place of play and experimentation. For now, showing up and being present is the goal, and anything beyond that is just bonus. This month is for me.
Take the time you need to reflect on what you need right now. Do what you can to offer it to yourself among the pushes and pulls of your daily responsibilities. It’s not selfish, it’s not lazy, it’s important.
All my love and wishes for a safe holiday season,
Bri
*I had to ask Google if disheartenment is a real word because it feels like there is one too many suffixes, but IT IS! Yay for words!